New Year resolutions................

Dear Diary,

Every year I will come up with new year's resolutions even though most of the time, it is either failed to materialize or abandoned half way.  

So, what are my resolutions for this year? 

1. To be a perfect Mrs. to him.
2. Keep on learning - to continue my study which is long overdue.
3. Leave eating unhealthy and junk food and shift to healthy diet foods.
4. Be more productive and proactive. Work out regularly to get rid excess weight.
5. Spend more time with people I love.
6. To maintain in blog writing for the whole year.  
7. Make new friends and maintain the existing ones.
8. Be a supportive mom and try to understand that they are GROWING UP! They are a kid anymore...
9. Read more books.
10. TRY to save some money.
11. Do something nice for others often.

I guess it is enough for this year.  Hope I can accomplish at least half of it, if not all of these resolutions.

Wish me luck!

Signed off for now,

LOLA

 

Daddy's girl......

Dear Diary,

Dedicated to all children that have lost their daddy or mommy or both.  
Always remember that they will be forever in your hearts.

Her hair up in a pony tail,
her favourite dress tied with a bow,
today was Daddy's Day at school,
and she couldn't wait to go...

But her mommy tried to tell her,
that she probably should stay home,
that the kids might not understand,
if she went to school alone...

But she was not afraid,
she knew just what to say,
what to tell her classmates,
on the Daddy's Day...

But still her mommy worried,
for her to face this day alone,
and that was why once again,
she tried to keep her daughter home...

But the little girl went to school,
eager to tell them all,
About the dad she never sees,
a dad who never calls.

There were daddies along the wall in back,
for everyone to meet,
children squirming impatiently,
anxious in their seat...

One by one the teacher called,
a student from the class,
to introduce their daddy,
as seconds slowly passed...

At last the teacher called her name,
every child turned to stare, 
Each of them were searching, 
for a man who wasn't there...

"Where is her daddy at?",
she heard a boy called out,
"She probably doesn't have one",
another student dared to shout...

And from somewhere near the back,
she heard a daddy said,
"Looks like another deadbeat dad,
too busy to waste his day"....

The words did not offend her,
as she smiled at her friends,
and looked back at her teacher,
who told her to begin...

And with hands behind her back,
slowly she began to speak,
and out from the mouth of a child,
came words incredibly unique...

"My Daddy couldn't be here,
because he lives so far away,
but I know he wishes he could,
be with me on this day"....

"And though you cannot meet him,
I wanted you to know,
all about my daddy,
and how much he loves me so"....

"He loved to tell me stories,
he taught me to ride my bike,
he suprised me with pink roses
and taught me to fly a kite"...

"We used to share fudge sundaes,
and ice cream in a cone,
and though you cannot see him,
I'm not standing here alone"....

"Cause my Daddy is always with me,
even though we are far apart,
I know because he told me,
he will forever be here in my heart"....

With that her little hand reached up,
and lay across her chest,
Feeling her own heartbeat,
beneath her favourite dress...

And from somewhere in the crowd of dads,
her mother stood in tears,
proudly watching her daughter,
who was wise beyond her years...

For she stood up for the love,
of a man not in her life,
doing what was best for her,
doing what was right...

And when she dropped her hand back down,
staring straight into the crowd,
She finished with a voice so soft,
but its message clear and loud...

"I love my Daddy very much,
he is my shining star,
and he would be here if he could,
but heaven is much too far"....

"Sometimes when I close my eyes,
it is like he never went away",
and then she closed her eyes,
and she saw him there that day...

And to her mother's amazement,
she witnessed with surprise,
a room full of daddies and children,
all starting to close their eyes...

Who knows what they saw before them,
who knows what they felt inside,
perhaps for merely a second,
They saw him at her side...

"I know you are with me Daddy",
to the silence she called out,
and what happened next made believers,
of those once filled with doubt.

Not one in that room could explain it,
for each of their eyes had been closed,
but there placed on her desk,
was a beautiful pink rose...

And a child was blessed, if only for a moment,
by the love of her shining bright star,
and given the gift of believing that,
heaven is never too far....

I miss you Abah........so much


Signed off for now
LOLA